Marriage...

It is super late...I know... but i just need to get this out...

I watched a movie tonight that made me cry a little and if you know me you know I don't cry at movies... but there was just something about this particular film...

There was an old couple in the movie that loved one another. Their marriage was true and good and there was an understanding between them that could not be deciphered. Watching them made me realize that marriage isn't just about a wedding and honeymoon and cute moments with one another during your twenties. Marriage is a life long covenant to another person that takes work, and trust, and respect, and love that only God can provide.

Too many times today people are getting married to fill a void. They are tying the knot to avoid the unraveling of their own life and identity. So they make promises they have no idea how to begin to keep. They are searching for worth and life in a relationship that is not meant to provide those things. Marriage is an outward expression of God's love and favor on us. It is not a replacement for the love that our Heavenly Father gives us. Marriage is not a substitute for our relationship with God.

I want a marriage that is full. I want a marriage that is true. I want a marriage that is based on God and His immense love for me and my husband and who we are as individuals and as a family. I want a marriage that is honest and love and glorifying to the Lord. I want a marriage that would bring honor and glory and blessing to the kingdom of God. This is my prayer.

Where Is My Identity...

I am a little insecure...

I have a wonderful job. One that I love and look forward to everyday. There is but one issue; I feel like my "boss" thinks I am doing a bad job. When I first started I got affirmation often about my performance and now it seems that I am getting none and the interactions I have with my "boss" seem strained (at least on my end). What is the problem? What can I do to fix it?...

As I was writing that I realized something... I am having a heart problem. I am confident that my employer would have told me by now if there were any insufficiencies in my job. I think the real problem is this... I am not finding my identity in Christ. I am not looking to Him for guidance and affirmation. He restored my soul, He redeemed my life, He brought me to this job that I love so much. I think I have spent too much time trying too hard to get affirmation too many wrong places!

Lord help me to find my identity solely in you and your love. Let me be confident in the abilities you have given me and help me to glorify you in all I do. Let me be a doer of the word. Thank you for saving me everyday.

Amen...

And The Son Is Shining...

I am sitting on my front porch. I am enjoying a half sandwich, orange, and coke. I am barefoot and in a plain white t-shirt. The sun shines warm on my face and the simple blow of the breeze embraces me and I feel the Lord telling me He loves me.

And I am content.

God is so good to me! I am just in awe of how much peace He has given me right at this moment. He has given me a smile and a quiet heart today. I am not worried about what tomorrow will bring or how much money I don't have or what I am going to do when I grow up. Sometimes life doesn't have to be complicated. Sometimes the best things in life are organic, and unplanned. Sometimes sitting on your front porch is exactly the kind of rest you need.

And the Son is shining...

Hello!

This is going to be short and sweet tonight...

I have no idea what I am doing so this blog is going to be about me figuring out what to do in the midst of being catapulted into adulthood...

So far...

Being a grown up is craptastic...

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